When we decide something, we have to responsible with that decision. How and whatever the condition is...we have to know the consequences of it...Right?

Regarding couldn't believe in someone taking care of my baby, I choosed to take care of my baby by myself. I had to resign from my work after delivering Fritz.

I love staying at home, handling every chores of a housewife. I can wake up as late as I want without being worried of I'm gonna be late for work. I can watch the TV along the day. I can use the computer as long as I want, googling and finding lots of information. I can do everything at home.

However, for some moments, I got bored with all the activities I've done everyday. Though it's not always be the same, still it's got boring lots.

Actually this is the consequences I have to face right?

Now, after a year I'm at home, I felt losing lots of thing from outside. Suddenly, I felt I lost my friends. I don't know how to make a conversation with them. They're lost from my sight. I hardly to find any friends to chat with. I lost my socialization and it's really sadly. I couldn't hang out again with them, I couldn't chat and throw some jokes with them, and I'm totally missing them...

Next thing is I'm being a narrow minded man. It's because I'm officially not attached with people outside that I called environment. I don't have any chance to chat with them lot. I have a little conversation with them but it's not a face to face conversation I had. I did it through phone and internet. Yes, I talk with them, but I'm not seeing their faces..It's so weird. I really don't know bout the outside world anymore.

Then, my English become worse. I didn't make any conversation anymore using English with my colleges at school and tutorial, the place that I worked. I don't have any partner who can develop my English anymore..

I really got jealousy when I saw some pictures of my friends having fun together. They're going by bus, enjoying the travelling together, laughing together...I missed the togetherness..I missed my old times...I missed being single..

Do I regret what I choose and I face?
For some times, yes...of course...
But I believe, no one will happy with their choosen things for their life. Everyone has their own life and destiny. This is my choosen and I had to face it though I like it or not. Am I right or right??

I'm jealous with elses then they also are jealous with what I have....cheers....

The house is crowded with the boxes and containers fulled with my stuffs and Fritz's stuff around the house. We're not going to move away anyway. That's only our things..;p

It made my Mom got dizzy as it is her house, right. So today three of us, my Mom-me-&-Ali, tried to tidy up by reducing some boxes and throwing away the used things. As I predicted, it just took for few boxes and the house is still crowded with the stuffs...

At least, though just few boxes out and some used things moved away, I tried to tidy my things and Fritz's things reachable.

Heres some boxes I belong:
*Upstairs*
1. A cream plastic container fulled with all the complete college books.
2. A box of Primary 1 to 6 photocopies worksheets.
3. A yellow plastic container of my important things such as my graduation books since high school and college, song lyric books, collection things (erasers, stickers, cards), and others that I couldn't remember it one by one.
4. Another cream plastic container of primary new English books, Mandarin books, and other resources for primary..it's for Fritz..
5. The other cream plastic container of clothes for 2 years and more. It's heritage from my brother.
6. A green of plastic container of baby clothes that Fritz used since he was born till a year. So next time if I'm going to have a new baby again, I can take if there.
7. A box of baby born's presents from my friends. I can use it again if one of our friend delivery the babies.

*Downstairs*
- Out of the room-
1. 3 various boxes of Fritz's b'day presents.
2. A green container of toys from someone.
3. A milky container of dishes utensil
4. A red container fulled of Kinderworld's worksheet, I can use it for Fritz's learning next time. From Toddler to Kindergarten..complete..
5. Another milky container of mixed stuffs such as towels, lunch jar, and other stuffs.

-Inside the room-
1. A milky container of Fritz's books for study. There is tracing lines books, ensyclopedia, pictures dictionary and others.
2. A dark green container of my felt stuffs.
3. Another dark green container fulled of Fritz's toy inside without the top. So he should put all the toys inside the container.

Those all my boxes and containers...it's fulled of my stuffs and Fritz's stuffs....*it's a lot!!*

I also tidy the Excel's and I put my books on the 2nd and 3rd row while Fritz's book is on the bottom of the Excel's. So if he wants to read books, I can get it nearby and reachable. Also with his toys...

Though the boxes and the containers are still lots, I'm trying to reduce my oldies stuffs such as my diaries since primary to get rid out of my life...from 3 boxes to 1 box of my life...oooh my things from the past. I have to say bye-bye...u're just the past and always be my past..
lots of memorable things to remember...hix..hix..

Talking about Fritz's appetite, he is always showing up and down. Sometimes in one day he could grab what I gave, then the next day he totally would refused his meal.

Recently, I got quite dizzy with his breakfast. He got bored with oat already. He refused his usual meal in the morning, oat with meat or chicken and a little spoon of salt with spreading cheese on top. He had eaten this food for quite long in last few month and I always have given it everyday..No wonder he got bored, yeah??

Then I had to think another solution for his breakfast and it's totally blank...like this morning...

Another problem comes up, I have to think lunch meal menu...arghhhh.....

I really need spending extra time to think about our daily menu...for breakfast, lunch and dinner and for snack...if not, I will mess up coz I don't know what I should eat and give for Fritz...and the worst thing is he addicts with the food containing of MSG while I always trying to not put that kind of thing on our meal....*gosh*

Today Fritz has an opportunity to go to some banks accompanying Opa. He has met some people with various profession inside. He met some securities who charmingly and nicely greet him and played with him. Then he met the customer service and the marketing and they've gotten Fritz' waving hand of bye-bye and kiss-bye as usual when he was walking away. He also met some children with various age. Suddenly, I met my chatting friend in the net, Yuwinda Hidayat and her daughter, Viella. We had a little chat in the small restaurant before Fritz got tired and taking his nap in the car.

At home in the afternoon, I gave him my new felt book about pet animals. He loved to see it especially the dog, fish and cat. Then, he played with his farm animals' puzzle after he got bored with the book. Related to the animals he learned, so I turned on the Baby Einstein's movie on my player. He saw A day in the Farm part. He learned what we can see on the farm, the product from the farm, how to planting and growing things in the farm and also the farm animals itself.

He really learned a lot today, perhaps it can enrich his vocabularies more.