Recently, I really cannot control my anger. Everyday, I always angry for the simple things. I even don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel that everything isn't going smoothly as I want. I know it seems that I'm so selfish wanting that everything is on my control.

For the info, I didn't get my period for almost 3 months. I'm not pregnant now. I know it well. I just feel my tense is so high when someone do a simple mistake with me.

The most victim person, of course the one and only, is my maid. For me, she always does lots of mistakes, from simple ones to big ones. And she always makes my voice rise up when talking with her. After I got angry to her, I always felt guilty. She actually is a good person. She is so handy. She wants to help me everything she can do. Though she isn't smart enough and sometimes do some stinky things and this always makes me get angry to her. When I got angry to her, I seem like a devil. I can say bad words and can't stop my words. Really feel guilty... -_-

If I can share my problems here...
I really face some problems that I can't face it. I really want to run away from these problems and live by ourselves...just 3 of us...I, my hubby and Fritz....I wish....

God...help me to get out of these problems and lead me to the right path...Please.....

Starting 30th June, my hubby is officially resigned from his work. With one and other reasons, we decide to move from that place. He will start his career as an entrepreneur. (note: with a less money...)

Then luckily one of his colleges called him to offer a good job with a good salary too at that moment. Unfortunately, it will start 6 to 9 months forward. She gave him some times to reconsider the offering. She really depends on his decision and she really needs a "yes" answer to join with her project.

Actually it's really a good offering job. He will be a chief of this place. And I'm really proud with the salary she'll give. Honestly, we are so glad with this news. Then...we had a little confusion, what we'll do to fulfill our needs for 6 coming months..

My hubby has some plans for it and I just can pray for him. May Lord gives him ways for my hubby!

I believe the miracle will come to us. One day we can show to people that we can be success. I have to believe it. One day, some people are going to respect our sweat and tears. We will show it...We will.....

Fritz is going to have his home education on this July. I hope I can be responsible with my decision and I hope I can be so consistent with it. Most of all, I just need some supports from the environment I'm going to face. It's a hard decision but I have to do it for my boy. Hopefully it can go well, though I believe there will be up and downs problems later. Ciayo!!

I'm writing the days on Zillion Marvelous Journey's Blog. A new blog of Fritz's home education.

You should prepare balanced meals and healthy snacks for your toddler. Well balanced offerings, especially during snack time, will help you to overcome the inevitable lack of food intake during a meal.

For example, if your toddler does not drink all of his milk at breakfast, give him cheese for a snack. If your toddler refuses to eat his meat at lunch, give him tofu bites dusted with Cheerio or Granola crumbs for a snack.

In these examples, while you may lament at the lack of calcium and protein intake during breakfast and lunch, you have taken the opportunity to "make up for it" during snack time!

Toss out the idea that your Toddler will suddenly be eating "like the family" does! Remember, your Toddler is still in a stage of slow-then-rapid-then-slow growth and is going through many changes!

How Much Should I Try to Have my Toddler Eat per Day?

When planning and serving meals to your toddler, try to have him/or her consume the following on a daily basis:

• 2 to 3 cups of calcium - milk (or yogurt, cheese or other calcium rich foods)

• 4 servings of fruits and vegetables. (Serving size: one tablespoon per year of age.) One serving should be high in vitamin C and another in vitamin A.

• 4 servings of grains - bread and cereal. One should be an iron-fortified baby cereal. A serving is about 1/4 to 1/3 an adult portion (1/4 slice toast, 1/4 cup pasta)

• 2 servings of proteins - meat, beans, eggs, tofu, or peanut butter. A good serving of protein should be served at every meal. One serving equals 1/2 ounce.

What is Considered a Serving Size for a Toddler?

We find that feeding your Toddler becomes less complicated and frustrating when parents realize what a serving size for a Toddler really is. A good rule for serving sizes for toddlers is the following::

1 tablespoon per year of age or 1/4 of an adult serving per year of age

At the next meal, use these measurements exactly and see for yourself how little food a Toddler should actually be eating. We bet you will be quite surprised!

Taken from wholesometoddlerfood.com/Toddlers.htm

Milk/Dairy: Servings: 16-20 ounces of milk per day. Whole milk, soy or rice milk are recommended. Other equivalents: 1/2-3/4 ounce of cheese = 4 ounces of milk. 1/4 cup of yogurt = 2 ounces of milk.

Fruits and veggies: Servings: 5 or more per day. Serving size: 1-2 tablespoons - Pureed, mashed, or cubed.

Grains: Servings: 3-4 per day. Serving sizes: 1/2 slice of bread, 1/4 cup of cooked cereal, 1/4 cup of dry cereal. 1/4 cup of pasta, 2-3 saltine crackers, or 1/2 tortilla.

Non-dairy Proteins (meat, fish, beans, eggs): Servings: 2 per day. Serving sizes: 1/2 egg, 2-3 tablespoons beans (i.e. black, pinto, edamame, etc...), 1 tablespoon peanut butter, or 1 ounce of fish, lean beef, pork or chicken.

Taken from keepkidshealthy.com/experts/fb/toddler_serving_sizes.html

Note: 1 ounce = 28.3495231 grams, 1 ounce = 29.5735296 ml

Here are some his abilities in this month:

- He starts to walk steadily. He slowly doesn't raise his two hands up anymore while he is walking. He's also able to stand up easily using his both little legs without falling down anymore. His walking is improving in a month. Every day, he practices his walking by going here and there, going to Uncle's room, bathroom, bedroom, Opa's room, to the kitchen and playing with the things around there. So I don't need to guide him again...Yay....I'm free now, I just let him exploring all the things around him. If he felt down, I always say to stand up again and that's ok...I really can't wait to see him running!!

- His vocabularies are also improving this month. Though he's not yet producing some clear words, I still teach him everyday with new words.
Here the lists:
* butterfly ( he still keeps on trying to make a butterfly symbol by using his hand as I did to him)
* chicken ( he does it like a duck. He's also recognizing the picture of chicken in the Pecel Lele's hawkers in the street he passed, then he showed to me the movement of duck)
* frog ( then he looks at the big froggy's bank in the top of the big cupboard in home)
* cow ( he can recognize any kind of cows wherever he sees)
* airplane ( he knows finally the things in the sky that can fly like a bird)
* turtle, rabbit and bird ( he is still learning on this vocab)
* horse (knows the pictures and like to ride a horse toy)

- play pretending things such as driving a car, a motorcycle and riding a horse with the bolster

- able to kick the ball

- prefer hip hop song to sentimental songs. He can cry when hearing those songs....really cry with falling down tears. So sad!

- when he wakes up and there is a remote control on the bed, he will get it and turn the TV on. Ohhh gosh, he copies what I did!!

- The other things:
* raise your hands...then he raise his hands and I'm going to tickle his armpit. He will do it more and more raising his hands without I'm asking...hahahhaa
* peace sign by showing two fingers...I taught him when we did mirroring and took a picture. He's trying to do it more and more...so funny...
* shocking...by putting his palm on the chest.
* powdering..get any kind of bottle and put in her belly and spread it like powdering...he's totally copying from me.

- he prefer to play the things around to his toys. He likes transferring the small red beans from one bowl to other bowl by using spoon.

- I teach him how to pray now and recognize his Jesus Christ. Then, I'm trying to sing some religious songs that he had heard on Sunday School.

I really can't memorize what he did one by one, but for me, he's a big boy now. He starts to copy all the things he sees. Then I really must be careful with what we do, what he see and what we say...and the most of all, he is a brilliant boy for me...