Fritz got flu again after 4 month he's strong and healthy...

It started 2 weeks ago and I still did the same method, not going to doctor and prefer to do traditional medic to cure him.

For the first week, I went to the park everyday and got plenty of sunshine there. Though Mr Sun wasn't shine strong enough after the everyday rain in the night. I've got the flu too and it's really bad. Thankful, we can do the sunbathing together and a few hours after that it began to rain heavily.

And every night I asked Ali to cut the red onions and add some cooking oil a little bit in the small bowl then I rub it on Fritz's tummy and back to make him warmer.

He successfully can sleep tight and just woke up for drink milk.

When it went a week, I'm free from my flu but Fritz's still. Mr Sun was really too shy to shine in the morning. So we just stayed at home. I also started to give him flu medicine that I had bought few months ago. I gave it every night to make him sleep well.

His appetite was also lost days by days. He just ate a little only and I believe it's not enough for his daily needs. He looks thin but still active.

The peak was on Friday. After he woke up from his nap at 3 PM, suddenly his head was so hot when I touch it. So I gave him Tempra to make his fever got down. He became so cranky all day night. He refused all the food that I gave. He also didn't want to walk or even stand by himself. He looked so limp and weak. His face was pale and he got FEVER for the first time.

He was sooo cranky...couldn't sleep well in the night and always asked for milk all day night. So I finally I faced the Fever's time of Fritz.

I'm so sad when I saw Jeunk Mer went out from the garage this morning. Today was her last day staying in there. I will never see her anymore for the rest of my life.

Honestly, from the deepest of my heart, I'm really so sad.

She has accompanied me more than a decade. So many stories left behind with her. She was always beside me through happy or sad in sunny or rainy days...

Yup, she isn't young anymore but she still looks so beautiful. She's still strong though her machines is quite old to go far.

I've just remembered...
She is the one when I learned how to drive for the first time in 1999. I've gotten my first license too at that time with Mr Policeman was beside.

When in high school, she has accompanied me for some moments such as during basketball competitions, graduation day and also when I broke the rule at the street for the first time.

Then during college days. For more than 4 years I went to my univ, she was always beside me. Go here and there, with lots of friends up and down and stories with one of my special friend at that moment...

Also when I saw Ali for the first time, made a relationship with him and got married with him...she knew exactly!

The last one when Fritz went home from the hospital and the days we passed with Fritz...

So many stories left behind with her and I cry for that. Thanks for being my best friend, Jeunk Mer...Though I'll never see you anymore, I'm sure I will remember all the days we passed together...

I miss u already!!

16th months are not a short time for me and not a long time too. We have passed 16th months together, me and Fritz and including Ali (though he doesn't pass 24/7 with Fritz).

So many days with all of ups and downs we passes and that's make me strong and stronger everyday.

In this his 16th months age, he doesn't show any crucial improvement. All of his development is as same as last month with a few improvement only.

That I am just wondering, he becomes a trully copycat-er for us. What we do, what we say and what we act are so easy for him to be copied.

Last night, when we had attended one of my girlfriends' wed, I have to clean all the make up in my face. I went to the bathroom to wash my face when he was crying along. He couldn't wait for a moment coz he has sleepy much. When Ali asked him to go to bathroom, he stopped his crying and looked seriously my activity. Then, we entered the room and suddenly Fritz rubbed all his face as I did in bathroom! *shake my head again and smile*

This month, I still do my breastfeeding and he does it many times in the night while he is sleeping. It's because he doesn't eat lots in the day. Why? Because of many teeth are going to appear. And for this week, he got flu again...-_-'

Today is the first time I went for somewhere without my boy beside me.

I have classes again on Tuesday and Thursday at Grisenda, Pantai Indah Kapuk. Few weeks ago, I called my ex boss, Ms Nana, and asked for class that I can teach for this new school year. Then, she called me few days ago and told me to come again on those days. I'm so happy to hear this news!

One of my colleges, Ms Bunga, is 5th months pregnant woman. Hopefully, she will deliver her baby in the end of November. So, she really needs someone who can take over her classes during his maternity leave. FYI, she was the one who took over my classes when I had delivery Fritz 15 months ago. Hehehehe....repay her kindness, yeah?

Okay, I want to share the story of today.

It's started when suddenly Ali asked me to wake up from my taking nap. I really was so confused when he asked me whether I would go for teaching or not. Then I replied his question unconsciously. "What's teaching? Hah?" I really lost my self awareness. My brain was really unconnected the link one and others.

After few second, I realized that it's already 2 o'clock and I should get up to prepare all the things before I went. Then, suddenly, Fritz has waken up too. Oh gosh...

Our planning is I'm going when Fritz has taken his nap and Ali would take care of him while I was teaching AT HOME...

So...Ali took over my "job" and I changed my clothes and do some preparation before I went. Usually, when someone presses the alarm car key's pad, Fritz will be cranky and asks me to bring him to the car. I really did this one so carefully. I pressed the button when a motor was passing the house. So, it's not really sounded. Then, I went in a rush.

Note: in this case, I made a big mistake. I didn't say any permission to Fritz. I went secretly behind his back. It is as same as the thief. So next time, I have to tell him that I must to go for teaching and leave him at home with Poppa...Hopefully, he will understand it and I believe he will cry for some times.

When I was driving, I felt like I was out of the box. I felt a little freedom from my boredom I had recently. Suddenly my teen's blood appeared. I drove the car with music and sang it loudly. No need to lower my voice because Fritz is next to me. (I need to be a role model for Fritz, right? If he knows that his mom is crazy enough, he will follow my craziness...*sigh* -_-')

Coming back to my ex work (only 2 months ago, actually), I really had some new things to be shared.

First, the residential officer, the one who recognize me well coz I passed the gate for many times before, still recognized me and gave me the free pass card. So I can get out to other gate in the back of this resident when I went home. The happy thing is he called me "Non Stephanie" (Miss Stephanie) not "Ibu Stephanie" (Mam Stephanie)....so happy to hear that....^^ (my face is still familiar for him and I'm still good looking enough to be called as Miss....feels that I'm still single without hubby and boy...hehehe)

Second one, I felt like all the teachers treated me well. I missed this place and missed all the things inside. I just felt that I'm back to the past for a moment. Back to few years ago when I hadn't a hubby yet and a boy yet. hihihihihihi.....

The last one, I had a sad story from one of my students. He and his 2 sisters were students at that place. I really love this boy. He was really a smart boy with fatty looking. He's nice and charm, also gentle boy. Now he's changed. Everything in his life has changed. Both of his parents are divorced now. And the saddest thing is he becomes a rebel boy. He rebels because both of his parents don't pay attention anymore to him. Both of his sisters also do the same things. Three of them are being separated because of their parents. It's really so sad to hear this.

His big sister, sometimes, absences from her school and goes somewhere. His little sister becomes attention seeker. She really needs attention from her environment. She is quite happy when someone pay a little attention to her. The last is this boy. He becomes so lazy and naughty. He doesn't want to study anymore and hang with wrong friends. Three of them are really thirsty of attention of their parents while both of parents have new life with their couples. All their need is only lots of attention of parents. It's so pity! They are still young to face this and they were coming from a happy family before. They were clever, they were cheerful and they were playing in good environment. Now....

So sad to hear this happens to one of my favorite student. What will they be later in the future?

I had a great conversation with Ms Bunga, I had my English back (for so long I didn't use it), I had a yummy Sayur Asem for two times added ^^, I had a bad traffic jam when I was on my way home, and I faced a heavy rain before I caught up my home.

When I arrived at home, I saw a little boy in front of the door waiting me to get out of the car. He's my boy..He's my Fritzee...He's nice boy today. He didn't cranky at all and I'm proud with him.

What a really great moment ever!

Recently, I really cannot control my anger. Everyday, I always angry for the simple things. I even don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel that everything isn't going smoothly as I want. I know it seems that I'm so selfish wanting that everything is on my control.

For the info, I didn't get my period for almost 3 months. I'm not pregnant now. I know it well. I just feel my tense is so high when someone do a simple mistake with me.

The most victim person, of course the one and only, is my maid. For me, she always does lots of mistakes, from simple ones to big ones. And she always makes my voice rise up when talking with her. After I got angry to her, I always felt guilty. She actually is a good person. She is so handy. She wants to help me everything she can do. Though she isn't smart enough and sometimes do some stinky things and this always makes me get angry to her. When I got angry to her, I seem like a devil. I can say bad words and can't stop my words. Really feel guilty... -_-

If I can share my problems here...
I really face some problems that I can't face it. I really want to run away from these problems and live by ourselves...just 3 of us...I, my hubby and Fritz....I wish....

God...help me to get out of these problems and lead me to the right path...Please.....

Starting 30th June, my hubby is officially resigned from his work. With one and other reasons, we decide to move from that place. He will start his career as an entrepreneur. (note: with a less money...)

Then luckily one of his colleges called him to offer a good job with a good salary too at that moment. Unfortunately, it will start 6 to 9 months forward. She gave him some times to reconsider the offering. She really depends on his decision and she really needs a "yes" answer to join with her project.

Actually it's really a good offering job. He will be a chief of this place. And I'm really proud with the salary she'll give. Honestly, we are so glad with this news. Then...we had a little confusion, what we'll do to fulfill our needs for 6 coming months..

My hubby has some plans for it and I just can pray for him. May Lord gives him ways for my hubby!

I believe the miracle will come to us. One day we can show to people that we can be success. I have to believe it. One day, some people are going to respect our sweat and tears. We will show it...We will.....