He turns to 14th months today...He isn't a small baby anymore, he turns to be a big baby now though he's not quite as big as the others...

In his 14th month, he shows some developing.

He is able to walk in 19th May by himself unpredictably. Then he still needs more practice to walk without any help. Recently, he shows his eagerness in walking. He likes to ask me to accompany him walking. It's one of his process in walking.

His memory span is getting wider. He easily memorizes new things in his brain. With a little stimulate, he is able to recall it again from his brain. For example, when he saw a butterfly on one place in the morning, then in the noon he saw another shape of butterfly in the other place. He is able to recognize it by pointing at the pictures...He is able to recognize various style of one object.

In eating, he prefers to eat as what I eat in the same plate and same spoon. He always refused if I gave his meal on his own plate and using his spoon. He loves to eat krupuk a lot. Then, he starts to grab his own food by his little hand and put it on his mouth. His appetite is up and down. For some moment, he is able to finish his meal then the next day, he refused to eat his meal and just wanna eat his biscuit.

He loves to copy paste what we did in front of him. He also is easy to be taught with a new thing. So many things he is able to copy paste from we did...

Here some lists that he does this month:
* put his little finger in front of his nose, the sign of smelly
* do step one by one as a dancing style
* type something in his used keyboard as we are in front of the computer
* ask us to turn on the DVD player as he sees me to do that
* he knows the rules when he wants to go outside by getting his shoes then put on and take off then put it again in the shelves
* wash his hand, give some soap then rub his hands on the water, after that wipe it on the towel
* he knows some routines such as when someone is going out, he says bye2 by waving his hands and give a kiss bye by put his hands on his mouth like a kiss from far
* he also knows the routines of taking a bath, by giving me a soap bottle and a scrub towel to me then he standing up and ask me to rub his all body.
* he loves to go to others room, to his uncle and Opa's room, asking them to play with

He is a calm boy. He is totally different from the other boys who like to go around here and there. He can sit down nicely on his chair and look around the room, watching what the other things happen. He is a sweet boy with his handsome boy. He is able to give his hand to shake hand with a new person with his lovely smile. He is really a charm and cute boy that I have.

Hopefully next month, he is able to walk steadily and can pronounce words with clear voice. The others target he should achieve..

Morning....7AM

I and Fritz has just woke up. Actually he pursued me to wake up early in this morning. I just slept at 1.30 in the morning and he woke me up so this early. So sleepy..*sigh*

He holds my hand and asks to watch his fave movie, Mickey Mouse on DVD player. With my sleepy face, I followed him and sat down on the alphabet mat.

Then I was stood him up and unpurposely asked him to walk to me. He did! He could step for few without any hands of me. Yay!! Finally, the day has arrived....

Fritz's first few steps on the alphabet mat so early in the morning!!

In the noon, I asked him to do again, he did it for few rounds...yay!! Then I asked my bro to see it as approval that Fritz can walk by himself...

I'm so happy today....
I'm going to show it to my hubby and my mom when they had gone home later....

When I had to finish my work late in the night, I turned the music on my player. I put my old CD on it..all about the love songs.

I used to listen songs, especially love songs, when doing something or to kill the time. It was really relaxed my mind.

Then my memories were back to the past when hearing all those songs. Aaahhh....my past...

I was on my purple room. Alone. Hearing some sentimentil songs. No boyfriend. Just me and all my private things. My thoughts. Honestly, I missed it damnly!

I can do everything on my room without no one need to disturb me.
I can put everything on my room without no one complain how many my stuffs I have
I can sing loudly and didn't care whether my voice is good to be heard or not.
I can watch any kind of movie on my DVD player...drama...cartoon...series...
I can cry as long as I want when someone hurt me or break my heart or when I was down.
I can laugh at my stupidity life.
I can play with my thoughts by staring at my personal ceiling.
I can dream on my future.
I can do that I can't do now...

Ahhhh...I really missed my past...badly!
Can I have my private life again?

Another things that I missed on my past were I missed my time alone on the car. I could go everywhere I wanted using my car and turn on the music loud and sing along...and using my big sunglasses...
Then I could work as late as I wanted.
I could eat every junk food and fast food and no need to think about any cholestrol on my body because of getting old...

Overall...I missed my being single time...I wish I can turn back time.......

I love my life now, really, but sometimes I still couldn't believe it that I'm getting old and not a teenager anymore....haaa....what a life!
Should go on with my life whether I like it or not, right??

Music really made me so this sentimentil.....geeee....

Okay....

After I got some a little headache for a moment which is took several days to figure out what I'm going to do for the next....I know what I want now...

For gaining some money....
I prefer to make my own stuffs to be sold. I make some creativity using felt and I'm going to make book and finger puppets for children' learning aids. I had started for the last two weeks and thankfully some of my friends had ordered it. Thanks to God..

Next, I had a plan to make some brochures for my tutorial class on June. Hopefully it works...Please God gives me strength to face it....

For Fritz's education...
Since I'm quite busy with the felt, Fritz almost totally hasn't learned anything. I think I'm going to have another plan on June or July to start his learning again. I'm going to prepare all the things and time for him to study....Hopefully....

For Fritz's Menu...
Still with the same reason, Fritz starts eating everything that I eat. I didn't pay lots attention on his meal. It's okay for Fritz to eat what I eat but I'm trying to make it by myself. For the goodness sake, I'm going to make my monthly menu for me, Fritz and my hubby's meal....

That's all my planning.....

The summary:
For the last two weeks, Fritz almost hasn't learned a lot. I just introduced him with Sea Animals through internet or television as the media. The next day, I got busy with the felt I made. So, he totally stopped with his learning.

The other thing that he learned for the last two weeks were he knows his Savior now. He knows some children holy songs because I asked him to Sunday School. He learned to socialize and he was able to adjust well with his new environment.

I think, I'm going to stop his learning for a moment. I will start it again on June while everything will gonna be fine....Hopefully I can do it.....

Ughhh......my head is spinning around recently. I really need an idea (maybe some ideas) to get extra money.

Okay here's my plan:
- Online business via Facebook like others do.
* Then....what is the stuffs?? (thinking again.......)
* Send some messages to seller and ask for reseller their things without stocking any stuffs at all in my house ( no need money to spend, right?)
* Prefer to sell education stuffs to baby or others things. (actually, I love to the baby stuffs and it's quite profitable for me, I can buy the things for Fritz with lower price.....need to be consider it! I have a friend who open a baby shop near my house...I think I can ask to her...maybe....)

- Open tutorial class at home.
* Need some promotion of course, so I need brochures to schools and houses. Who will send it?
* The brochures must be sent on early June.
* Fix the price and it's lower than I got before
* Tidy up the room and need permission from my parents

For this moment, I'm trying to make an education stuff from felt that I had bought it. Hopefully I can do it fast for the customer while my boy is really need extra attention from me always. Fuiiih.....

God...help me...what should I do?

Whoooaaaaahhh.....I'm so happy...

Finally, Fritz's weight is 10kg now...After almost 4 months he's not gaining his wight and made me sooo frustrated with it, he shows improvement!

I almost brought him to the medical nutrition to know what happen with Fritz's weight. His weight was constant for few months and really made me worried.

Then, I shared with one of my friend in Surabaya. Her child was born with weight almost 4kg. Though he loves to eat and can eat with lots portion, his weight was stagnant. When he was a year, his weight just 7,8kg. Then she made an appointment with one of the best medical nutrition in her area. The result was her baby's nutrition absorption not really good. So he needs some treatment and therapy as her baby showed some delays in some progression.

She also shared about the nutrition seminar that she followed. She said that every single child needs 1,000kkal everyday. Gee...I really didn't understand what it mean. Then she explained it in simple way that every day a child needs to consume carbohydrate, vitamin, mineral and protein. A complete menu!

Besides, I still find some other information about nutrition in internet. I got a lots of info from this site. It explained me lots.

So, I decided to plan Fritz's menu in daily. Here are some plans:
Breakfast:
* consume oat or pancake or omelet or fried rice in a week schedule
* every breakfast must to eat min 20 spoons more or less.
* oat contains meat/chicken/fish plus cheese and a half glass of orange juice

Lunch & Dinner:
* carbo: rice, pasta or potato..the most is rice of course
* protein: meat/chicken/fish and nuts (tofu, tempe, beans)
* veggie: 1-3 kinds of veggies every meal

Snack:
* bread + cheese
* green beans
* fruits
* crackers or biscuits
* small portion of cake or snacks from the seller

Rules:
* breakfast is a must and eat like a king in the morning. Lots portion and complete menu!
* for lunch: eat half portion minimal
* for dinner: half portion from lunch is still okay
* must sit down on high chair
* on time: breakfast on 8 till 9 o'clock, lunch 12 till 1 in the noon, dinner 6 till 7
* snack is anytime
* not more than 1 hour every meal
* need consistency!

So far I could do it though not every time is on the schedule... ;p

Fritz's 1st Sunday School
@St. Matias Rasul
8.30 AM

I'm not the one who always go to the church every week. So, when I brought Fritz going to church, he was a little bit scared with the sound of organ and choir. Then, I should stay outside along the mass. Next, I took a heavy heart to go to church and prefer to stay at home or go to other places.

I think it's a bad habit and bad reason, huh?
With this condition, I should change it, at least for the better life for Fritz's future. He must to know his Jesus Christ, right?!

Today, I decided to bring Fritz to Sunday School. Though we came a little bit late, the class has just started with singing time. Fritz wasn't crying at all, he looked enjoying the class. Firstly, he was a little bit scared with the environment. He just need a little time to adjust then he enjoyed it.

He learned how to color the picture with color pencil and paste the paper using glue. He also learned how to share the things that wasn't belong to him....^^

For his 1st attendance, he could adjust with the environment easily and he enjoyed all the activity...Hopefully, next week I will not be lazy anymore to bring Fritz to Sunday School....

Note: don't forget to bring color pencils or crayons, glue, snack and a bottle of water....also, money for church collection...

PS: I just remember that I was a teacher for Sunday School before when I hadn't met Ali yet in my life. I taught them, sang with them, made some crafts, put my ideas, did some drama with them, discussed with them, spent my Sunday's time with them and lots of memories with Sunday School's teachers....It's been 5 years ago and now, I'm the one who send my boy there. ....what a time!!!